It's Been Interesting

So far, my experience with classes has been very good. However, my experiences with financial aid has been a pain in the ass. I have been in verification for weeks now, and I have been paying for my education out of pocket. Today, in between my classes, I stopped by the administration building to speak with financial aid once more. I was then given the around about the time schedule in which my verification would be completed. I told her, "This is absolutely ridiculous! This is inept and totally unprofessional!" After that, I went home to take care of a few things before I went to my biology class. Funny enough, the schedule had the wrong room number for the course and I had ask the secretary at the Science Dept. where the class was located. Luckily, I had a very kind professor. The class went well, and she provides all of the notes online with cruiser. This is great, because I can actually enjoy the benefit of the lecture instead of playing beat the clock with the professor's power point or scrambling for every note throughout the class period. I have my first lab class tomorrow, and I am really excited. I haven't really studied biology before. I took chemistry and physics in high school. My husband was joking with me and said, "Maybe you will have to dissect a frog or a fetal pig." I'm not really nervous about that.

I have the next installment of my Shakespeare course today. I have read King John in the I and II Acts. I've taken some notes, but I would like to see her take on them. My professor moves very quickly, but I really enjoyed her last lecture. I'm going to look up some information on those acts from other sources. I figure this can give me some extra background on the material. I figure that would help once it gets down to writing a paper about the play. I'm actually nervous about it, because I've never really delved into Shakespeare in great length. We touched on it in high school, but it never really interested me that much. It always felt forced during those points in my life. In my adult years, my interests are piqued and the historical English subtext plays make it even more fun for me. The Tudor dynasty has always been my favorite subject. I've wrote a couple papers on it, and I have watched countless movies and read numerous books on the subject matter. Today, we are supposed to watch a film of King John. She did say that if the class kept up with the reading, she wouldn't have pop quizzes. I hope that the others in the class keep up with that end of the bargain.

I can't wait until October 1st! I am going to see Richard Marx and Matt Scannell at the Bergen Performing Arts Center in Englewood, New Jersey after my Biology lab class. If I haven't made any arrangements around that, I really should. Hopefully that will happen. My life has been a total wash lately when it comes to other people. I've been absent when it comes to friends and other social activities these days. Maybe I should learn to not make promises anymore, but I can't cut myself out entirely. My life is a comedy of errors when it comes to other people or at least to situations in general. I don't want anyone to feel disappointed or upset with me. Sounds pretty drastic when you think about it, but it's really true. Aside from things that are regimented, my life is incomplete when it comes to socially motivated relationships. In two words, "I suck!". That's not an exaggeration. Hopefully now that I have something else to think about, aside from the steaming pile of crap from the last couple months, I will be a better person. Although I have learned one thing this year: I refuse to kiss ass or put myself in a position where I am going to be stepped on, manipulated by ridiculous familial persons, or be used by sack of crap fair-weather asswipes. I've decided to grow something these days, and I think it's been looooong overdue!  It's called good self-esteem and pride in myself!  I'm not going to eat crappy food, I'm not going to die like my mother, I'm not going to be everyone's doormat, and I'm going to live to my fullest potential.  I think that kind of sums up my attitude after my experiences from this year. Thank you for listening to my offbeat weird and maybe even off-putting diatribe today. Love ya!