Retrospective and Getting Back on the Weightloss Bandwagon

 When you start something and you really mean it, you'll follow it through to the end. New habits, important habits, will replace bad trends and become a healthy way of life.  I started weight watchers last year, and so far I have lost over 60 pounds. Things lately, have plateaued. Now this can be attributed to stress.  My father went through a long bout of illness and he was hospitalized and is now in a nursing home, which brought a lot of stress on my sister, my husband, and I. The stress caused me to make poor choices when it came to eating. With this in mind, and a good hard look at the scale, I decided it was time to get back on the wagon.  So far I have lost another 5 pounds, which is good. It makes me nervous that I can easily fall back into old patterns so quickly.  It seems that it's easier to gain weight then it is to lose it and keep it off. It's like fighting a never ending battle that you think will never end.  But you have to persevere, and keep your head above water. Giving up is not an option! I know I may never look perfect, but at least I'll be as healthy as I possibly can.  I realize that on my only doing this so that I can be here and enjoy life with my husband and family. I'm really tired of being sick and tired. It was affecting and exacerbating my epilepsy to be overweight. I realize now that I have more stamina and I can do things like go to the park and hike or go to the mall and shop without feeling winded and tired within five minutes. It's a beautiful feeling that is completely freeing.  I don't want to go back to the person I was before. I want to be able to keep on a healthy path! When I think of what my mom went through, and the things that happened to her, A fear wells in me. I don't want to die from obesity.  Her life was a cautionary tale! It saddens me to even say that. Unfortunately, though, it's true. It was definitely something that became the impetus for my  weight-loss journey. So, I have to thank you mom. I miss you, but I know you'd be proud of me.